Ugh, I feel like the world stopped and turned its back on me within five seconds. I really don’t know why im so upset. But I feel like no one wants to be around me anymore, not that im saying ‘poor pathetic me’ I really hate to be like that but I can’t get this stomach churning feeling to go away or do anything to make me want to have fun. I need help.
Its been a hot minute since my last entry, fuck that shit about that guy, Andy. He broke my heart and that’s that.
My current future exboyfriend is currently in meHEEco (Mexico) on a mission trip, and I totally give him props because there isn’t a place a wouldn’t kill to be right now, with the exception of indiana, but there really isn’t a place I wouldn’t want to go to EXCEPT fucking Mexico, especially when you’re on a mission trip and you have to touch the people with swine flu inorder to make the prayer official, awhhhhhhhh helll nawwwwww. And I mean on top of that you’ve got the drug war. Mexico is just definitely not a hot vacation spot right now, but im sure hotel rates are very cheap. Got to look at the bright side of everything!
Well on an even more pathetic note, now that he’s gone, I’ve been doing nothing, and I mean absolutely nothing.. So it would be nice if I could get inspired to paint because I really need to finish my bullshit summer art homework.
All im going to say is how typical of you to do this.
Shame on you for being the same as everyother guy. This is the last absolute thing I need right now. I deserve so much better than you could ever be.
We’ve drifted apart.
Its over, I can feel it, you admit to not have
Time to talk to me, but how so if you love me
So much? It doesn’t fit together. Forgive me for giving up but I feel as if I tried my hardest to make it work. I hope you don’t take this harshly because I care about you so much. I truly do if I ever loved anyone it was you. Feel free to talk to me about it, but only when you have the time for me.
